Confusion

Thinking about last night
People said it was right. But I'm still thinking that I'm wrong
I didn't listen to what my heart said
The truth is..... I dunno what it said
I left half of my heart there
Hoping it wont disappear
Knowing that my appearance is not enough to make her believe
We all want the best for her
I know she wont left me, even in difficult situation
That's something that I believe until I graduate from high school
But I know I wont do the same thing
Until last night I decide to do it
Though I know this regret will forever be in me
I still want to try once
Hoping she will understand someday
Hoping she will forgive me someday
Even if it means
I'm no longer her little girl
That's enough for me